I have the blues.
I hate February.
February is usually a good month. We have Super Bowl parties, Groundhog Day, Valentine’s Day, and Washington’s Birthday to enjoy.
I am sitting here at the breakfast bar in my kitchen, eating breakfast. It is 11 AM and I am still wearing my nightgown and my nice warm robe and slippers. I cannot get motivated to do anything. I just want to sit.
It has been a week of cold, dreary weather. Snow flurries and 20 degrees today. I am cold and weary and a little depressed.
I crave chocolate and potato chips. I confess that I made a pan of brownies for breakfast yesterday with walnut pieces and chocolate chips and ate nearly everyone of them. They were delicious. Warm, melting chocolatey sweetness. I was feeling a little depressed and weepy and eating brownies for breakfast made my day a little better. I did feel a little guilty but I keep telling myself it’s okay to splurge once in a while. I had a cold glass of milk with them.
Except, one night last week we were craving potato chips. We held out until 9:30 PM. I drove to the gas station and bought two bags of chips to share with my husband. So crazy! We almost made it to bed without indulging. It’s okay. It was actually fun and it did satisfy my craving for chips.
Sometimes your body wants what it wants. Scientists say that cravings for chocolate are related to magnesium deficiencies. To me, chocolate means comfort. The taste, the smell, the feel of it melting in my mouth. Hot chocolate would be a better substitute as it is more nutritious and lower in calories. I like it and the warmth would be very soothing. The potato chip craving is more complex. Nothing else seems to work – popcorn, raw veggies, kale chips, toast. Sometimes I need real salty, greasy, crunchy chips. I’ll just have to work a few chips into my diet.
Diet is such a bad word! Dieting is really depressing me these days. I need to lose weight. My clothes are getting tight. I feel deprived when I try to return to my pre-holiday eating plan. I need some inspiration. I suppose the best thing would be to focus on eating healthy and eating enough to feel satisfied.
I can do better! I am making beef vegetable soup, fresh salad, and fat-free sugar-free white chocolate pudding for dinner tonight!
I am so happy that February is a short month!