Christmas has come and gone. And it is just a few days until the new year begins.
Time passes so quickly. December was a mad, crazy dash to Christmas Eve. It was a fun time but the memories are already fading. I have a few pictures to help me remember the good times but I wish I had taken more.
I am thinking about why Christmas activities from just a few days ago are such a blur to me now. I had a wonderful Christmas. It was a different kind of celebration this year. We celebrated with our son’s family in Los Angeles. The weather was beautiful. His home was beautifully decorated. Our daughter-in-law was a gracious host and fantastic cook. We had a lovely time with our two grandchildren. It was an amazing experience.
I felt nervous and anxious. I was worried about being a good guest. I was worried about whether everyone was having fun and whether they liked me or not. My self-confidence was at an all time low.
I can see now that I was overthinking it. My family loves me and accepts me for who I am. I wish that I been more relaxed and easy going. I really need to escape from my overthinking. I am constantly regretting my mistakes, worrying about the future, and punishing myself for my failures. I feel so trapped. My positive attitude seems to disappear when I am in a stressful situation. A positive attitude and gratitude would be very helpful in these situation. I should get that tattooed on my forearm. A couple of bracelets might do the trick.
It’s not too late to quietly savor the last few days of Christmas.
Enjoy the season. Focus on the positive.
Tonight we could jump into the car with friends or family or even by yourself and drive around looking at neighborhood Christmas lights. Take a thermos of hot cocoa or drop by a restaurant, a cafe, or even a bar for a meal, snack, hot drink, or holiday cocktail. Enjoy every detail of the colorful decorations. Enjoy the company and conversation. Taste the lovely hot, creamy cocoa on your tongue.
We could stay home and sip eggnog by the fireplace and enjoy the beauty of our Christmas trees. Light Christmas candles and smell the lovely fragrances of Christmas. Treat ourselves to some delicious fudge or cookies. Listen to a few Christmas carols. Feel the warm, comforting fire. Snuggle up on the couch with a warm blanket. Listen to the festive music. Taste the sweetness of creamy, spicy eggnog on your tongue. Enjoy the warmth of snuggling.
Too much Christmas? Maybe. It’s almost over. We’ll be celebrating New Year’s Eve in a few days. New beginnings are on the horizon.